Sick again

So I am having more tummy troubles today. GRRR! I am SO tired of this! I wish my silly body would just straighten up and fix itself! I have no idea what is wrong or what to do about it. I guess it is just another one of those times when I have to let go and let God. Kinda hard to do under the circumstances but then again what choice do I have? I know in my heart that God has the POWER to heal me and that He even WANTS to heal me...I just have to LET Him heal me. I have to let Him speak to me and lead me to the right doctors at the right hospital who will know what they are doing and what they are talking about and will be able to help me. I have to keep trusting God that He allowed me to have this disability and everything that comes with it, for a reason. I do not know the reason, but I DO know God and He NEVER does ANYTHING arbitrarily. I must choose to keep on believing that I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that He knew what He was doing when He made me this way. I don't have to like it, but I need to learn to accept it. So I am brought to this conclusion: Sick or well, I will praise Him. Even if I must die I will yet praise Him. No, I do not think I will die from whatever is happening to me, but if I should succumb to something else and be taken out of this world and catapulted into the next life which glory to God is gloriously Eternal, I will do so praising Him. My humanity and flesh does not want me to even be writing these things right now, but I don't care anymore. I am sick and tired of listening to and living to please just my flesh. That is how I got to be as heavy as I am. So right here and now I make the following promise: My flesh will NOT rule over me. My LORD will rule over me...and the peace which passes all understanding will guard my heart and mind in Him as my mind is kept on him. It must be true...The Bible tells me so! Amen and amen...and good night!